Wednesday, April 29, 2009


I don't wanna sound like a feminist or anything, but something that happened to me today prompted me to speak out about this.

Respect towards girls.

To all you boys out there, just, please, BELAJAR MENGALAH SIKIT DENGAN PEREMPUAN BOLEH TAK.

Be the bigger person, in other words, be the gentleman Allah the Almighty created your species to be and don't shout and yell obscenities at a girl, ESPECIALLY when she does not deserve it.

Who the hell do you think you are? Calling a girl 'sayang' one moment, then POOF, you yell at her the next? Ber-aku engkau pulak tu? Terjerit-jerit tak tentu pasal. Gila kot.

And the best part is, I did not deserve any of it. Not a single one of it.

How could you. How DARE you? Never in my life I've been shouted at like that, not by anyone.

I may not have many guys in my life, but those that I do have, are a million times better and more respectful than you are.

You've known me for what, 2 weeks and dah pandai jerit-jerit macam tu.

To all my girlfriends out there, 'these' kinda guys do not deserve a place in your life. WE deserve gentleman who respects us. Who understands us.

Sorry, I rarely use my blog to insult others (other than celebrities, and of course, those emo-angst filled posts from a few weeks ago), but what happened to me today was waaaayy out of line.

I just had to say something.

Geram tu belum hilang lagi. Memang takkan hilang kot.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Tagged By Fifi

Three Things That I Love :
1. Books
2. Literature
3. Petrosains

Three People Who Make Me Laugh :
1. Dan (rindu kat dia)
2. My Dad
3. Simon Cowell

Three Things I Hate :
1. People misspelling my name.
2. People asking me why I'm not planning to do medic.
3. Drama Melayu.

Three Things I Don't Understand :
1. Why people seem to hate Matt Giraud. I think he's great.
2. Why is the economic crisis affecting Petronas.
3. Why everyone in Petrosains thinks I look older than my age.

Three Things I'm Doing Right Now :
1. Doing this thing. Like, duhh.
2. Chatting with Ili on Facebook.
3. Teaching my bro some complicated Maths problem. Actually its not complicated. My brain's just got rusty due to lack of use.

Three Things I Want To Do Before I Die:
1. Meet the guy of my dreams, fall in love with him, get married and have wonderful kids.
2. Beribadat sebanyak yang mungkin.
3. Achieve my goals and make my parents proud.

Three Things I Can Do :
1. Buat Safety Briefing for group visits dekat Lobby. Bangga owh. :)
2. Read Harry Potter and Dan Brown's books over and over again.
3. Wear a tudung properly when I have to.

Three ways To Describe My Personality :
1. Ambitious
2. Over-analyzer
3. Thrifty

Three Things I Can't Do :
1. Play sports. I mean, any kind of sport. At all. I'm hopeless when it comes to sports.
2. Play any type of musical instrument. I really wish I could though.
3. Look at videos of myself.

People to tag:
1. Belle
2. Sarah
3. Wanee

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Hot Stuff

Look! Its the Jonas Brothers' new album cover! Its super GORGEOUS! I can't wait! :):)

Okay, calm down now. Its coming out laaame lagi, June 15th. Dahla they're not including Malaysia in their World Tour. Now I feel even more resentment at being born in this country. Hmmph.

As for my SC "assessment" that day, it turned out to be one of those case study things, where they give you each a situation, then provide you half an hour to brainstorm, then you go into the panel of interviewers alone and present it for about 10 minutes. After all of us were done, (there were seven people in my group), we moved to the meeting room, and were given 40 minutes to discuss with our group members about the case given to us. We were then required to give a conclusion and solution to the problem. The panel was not bad, they didn't say anything at all actually, they just observed and reminded us how much time we had left. All in all, I can just say that I think I did my best, but I don't know if its enough since everyone in my group was good. And these SC scholarships are really limited too. So..fingers crossed, all I can do is pray.

And now I know that breaking someone's heart is not easy. Especially if you don't actually dislike that person. You love that person's company, he/she is a good friend, he/she is caring and makes you laugh. But life is cruel. When you love someone, with all your heart, sometimes they just don't love you back the way you want them to.

I should know.

That's why it was so hard for me to do it. But I had to, or I would risk hurting him even more.

And you know I'm not good with risks. I'd rather play safe. Matters of the heart is not worth any risk. None at all.

I'm sorry.

You deserve so much better. You are an amazing person and anyone would be so lucky to get someone like you. You will find that person. Or rather, that person will find you.

Monday, April 20, 2009

Assessment, What?


The SC called on Saturday saying that I've been shortlisted from the interview the other day and I've been asked to come again this Wednesday, the 22nd, for an "assessment".

Its great news, but what the hell does "assessment" mean? Is it some scary exam? An IQ test? Another interview? They wouldn't tell me, too. They just said "dress well, be there by 8.30". Boleh tak.

That being said, I know that I really want this. I hope everything goes well. :)

Unfortunately, there are also other things on my mind besides this assessment thingy. And I have to say its more complicated. Waaayy more complicated. I don't know what to do. I really don't. Hmmm.

On another matter, it really is starting to piss me off when people stare at me as if I've just landed from Mars when I tell them I plan on doing Law. They'll go "Tapi mak kan doctor, rugi laa kalau awak ambik Law", or "Orang pandai macam awak nak ambik Law?? Ambiklah benda lain.."

What the hell is that about? Does that mean that Law is only for stupid people? Or just because my mom is a doctor, its like confirmed in my DNA that I will follow in her footsteps? Oh, wake up Malaysians. Medicine is not the only career path available. Besides, believe it or not, my mom is glad that I'm not joining the stampede of people wanting to take medic in this country. She's glad that I know what I want and not merely following the herd.

No offense to those taking medic, I'm just frustrated at the mentality of some Malaysians. Don't they know that in truly developed countries like America, you can take up any course (and in some cases, multiple courses) in university that you like and still make a career out of it. There are people there who specialize in Glaciology, Astrophysics, Cultural Anthropology, Entomology, and heck, even Tolkienology. If you have no idea what the hell I'm talking about, Google it. Or look it up in Wikipedia. Open up your minds. Believe it or not, there is a world out there.

That is the mark of a truly developed nation. A land of opportunity. A land where its people can pursue their dreams yet still earn a decent living for themselves. A land where the taxpayers' money is spent in the right way, for the well-being of the people, and for the eternal quest for knowledge and progress.

You're still very far off, Malaysia. I'm just sorry.

Monday, April 13, 2009

Just A Thought

"If you're always looking for reasons not to be with somebody, then you'll always find them, but at some point maybe you should let go and give your heart what it deserves."
-Lucas Eugene Scott

Oh Luke, how I wish it was that simple.

Friday, April 10, 2009


Alhamdulillah :):):)

I just received a call from the Securities Commission just now saying that I have been shortlisted for their scholarship award! Which means I have to go for their interview next Tuesday, the 14th. I almost couldn't believe it, I almost lost all hope of being shortlisted since they contacted me after about 2 weeks upon receiving my application. I really thought I didn't get it. But God is great. And I'm really happy.

But scared at the same time. Since I didn't do really well for my JPA interview. This SC interview should be harder since its individual (yikes!), they have higher standards, their scholarships are limited, and they are an actual company, thus I should have a sound knowledge on their company background, what they do, their vision and get the picture. And its not easy understanding all that either, since they're basically a corporate financial company, most of the stuff on their website is financial jargon that I don't really get. Oh great. Woopee. I hope I find something decent to wear too.

Please please please I really want this scholarship because its a guarantee that I will get into KYUEM and to the UK. Lets not think of being bonded to them right now. I just want to get into KYUEM. I need this. Try not to mess this up Aira, please? :)